I Needed To Lose Him

So I could realize I never ever had him 

Didn’t even need that slot filled 

I can fill it myself! 

Mommy hit me with a belt 

So I accept treatment as such 

She hit me but I learned this much: 

I can walk away, I can start over, I can change 

Now is no different 

I needed to lose him 

He showed me that he is not important 

He showed me that I am strong and I can choose myself! 

I choose myself! 

Each and every time 

& someone else will choose me in time…

But, not now 

For now, I’m focused on success 

Only creating the best 

Speaking with & from my chest 

I needed to lose him 

He wasn’t mine 

None of them are 

I needed a reminder 

I release him, then released him 

I am my fathers daughter 

But I am not him 

This I must know 

So when I think I’ll steadfast through torture 

I’ll instead, say no 

I needed to lose him 

Use him? 

No—it’s a loss

A big one at that 

That’s how I know that what I gain back 

Will be plenty 

Will be full 

Will be thorough

This alone

This I must know